Friday, January 27, 2012


       1)     What is the most important thing in your life?
      Spending quality time with the people I love.

2) What is the last thing that you bought with your own money?
    Magazine. I always buy stuff for myself since 18 anyways..

3) Where do you wish to get married?
    In a church. With you.

4) How old do you think you will be permanently owned by your love?
    Sayang, can you answer that question for me?

5) Are you in love?
    Berry strawberry much. :D

6) Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
    (restaurant?) can Kopi Lamping being called as a ‘restaurant’? :p

7) Name the latest book that you bought?
    2-Donny Dhirgantoro for Martin’s christmas gift.

8) What is your full name?
    Bella Stephanie Lalalili.

9) Do you prefer your mother or father?

10) Name a person that you really wish to meet in real life for the first time.

11) Christina or Britney?

12) Do you do your own laundry?
      Rarely. :p

13) The most exciting place you want to go?
      France. Italy. Japan. Israel. (so manyy)

14) Hugs or kisses?
      Both! No picking! :p

15) 8 things I am passionate about:

1. Education
2. Music
3. Career
4. Travelling
5. Sports and hiking
6. ANIMALS exclude snakes
7. Fashion
8. .CHOCOLATE and good food

16) 8 things I say too often:

1. Hah?
2. Kakaaaak..
3. Hehehe
4. IH!
5. Makasi
6. nda (tau) nda (mau) nda (punya) nda..nda..nda..
7. Peyuk
8. Ehmm…

17) 8 books I've read recently:

1. Bible
2. 2-Donny Dhirgantoro
3. Celebrity Wedding-AliaZalea
4. Err.. I haven’t read much sad. L

8) 8 songs I could listen to over and over again:

1.     Imagine Me/Help Me Believe-Kirk Franklin
2.     Turn Your Lights Down Low-Bob Marley feat.Laurynn Hill
3.     September/After The Love Has Gone-Earth,Wind, and Fire
4.     Never Too Far Away-Mariah Carey
5.     Strawberry Swing/Us Againts The World-Coldplay
6.     LA Blue-Joey McIntyre
7.     any Feist’s or Erykah Badu’s song
8.     She Went Home for Christmas – Mew
9.     Flightless Bird,American Wine-Iron & Wine
10.   It’s Over Now-Bonita and The Hus Band
11.   You know what? I can never answer this question.. There’s too MANY! AHAHA..

19) 8 9 things I learned last year:

1. Force yourself to do something good for you, and God will bless and make the road easier.
2. Spending quality time with your loved ones is a MUST.
3. You can’t always made everyone happy. Being more success means being more hated.
Choose your pick.
4. Being yourself is more important than being cool and popular.
5. Take a good care of your body for the first 40 years, and for the next 40 it will take care of you.
6. Start saving money for my big future.
7. Bigger job, bigger responsibility, bigger expenses. *sigh*
8. I’m too young to be this ‘old’!
9. Sports and hiking makes me happy.

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Q and A For Today

While waiting M to pick me up, let's play Q and A
I got the Q's from somewhere on the internet. ;)
1. At what age do you wish to marry?
Err.. can I asked M first? ;p

2. What is your most favorite thing to do?
READING, writing, studying, oh yes I'm such a geek. Plus swimming and shopping, I guess..

3. If you have a close close close close friend since childhood who loves to take away whatever you like, including guys/girls, and he/she always wins, will you still consider him/her your friend?

4. What would you give up in return to eat all you want in the world and not get fat ?
ahahhaha.. I am NOW! :D

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
Only one,eh? Hmm..made my Mom really happy.

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
The double M. Mom and M.

8. What do you feel like doing, right now?
Sleeping! My stomach hurts so bad due to my period.

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Maybe probably yes. After a looong time of waiting for him to say it first, I guess.

10.  What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Family man. Smart is a must, nice smile. Musical ability. Long hair. Dark skin. No drama queen(or king)

11. What is your ambition?
Die without regrets.

12. What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
Drama queen, backstabber, talk-behind-your-back thing. B*tch.

13. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Hope. No one can survive this crazy-world without it.

14. If you have a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick ?
Happyandrich. LOL happy. I'd choose happy anytime.

15. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
I'm too shy, and likes to create my own world. And the world says it's not normal. *sigh*

16. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
Martin & Elin.

17. How do you see yourself in 10 years of time?
33..had my master, work in a top architect firm, have a business, got married and have kids. Helped other people with their education.

18. What is the one thing you love about yourself?
I'm...passionate about the things I love. :p
19. Do you think your style actually reflects your personality?No. Reflects on my mood time. lol. When I'm busy I don't really care what I wear.

20. What does life mean to you?
Life is a journey. There is no end, only destination. 
And happiness in life is a choice. 
We chose either to be happy or just whine about how hard life is.

Named CinderBella!

I always loved shoes better than any other things. 
Better than clothes, accessories, any kind of things you could wear.

And for me, shoes tell much about a person's personality and appraisal on things. 

And I'm going to have a big space on shoe-rack when I have my own place. :p

I'm keeping myself away from shoe-shopping now.
But these are some of my favorites from  iwearUP

Note: I already have the stella beige stripes, and I love all stella series. ;)

4. POLLY Floral Blue

Polly comes with a pocket, so you can keep and carry around your lucky penny the whole day. Polly loves cupcakes too. Do you?
3.  TREE purple
Tree is loved for her natural charms.
Purple tenun wedges in limited quantity. 
2. PANDORA fuschia
Pandora is a real sweetheart and always in love. Pandora loves to read too!
Black faux patent leather straps, velvet fuchsia trims and bows with black velvet wedges. 
1. KATE two-tone
Simple yet sophisticated. Kate is a fun, intelligent sweetheart.
Beige straps with black trim. Red canvas-wrapped wedges.

These are super cute too! But already sold out. :'(

Jane Red and jane batik-black.
Jane is the ultimate sweetheart who loves to sing and munch!

One day I'm going to have all of those, and buy it myself. :p

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Surat Cinta #17: Untuk Stephanie

Stephanie, aku ingat. Kamu lahir di malam purnama, hari Sabtu.

Mungkin itu penyebab matamu yang bulat. Atau kecintaanmu pada bintang.
Ketika anak lain membaca komik, kamu akan membaca ensiklopedia. 

Kamu mogok lahir, membuat Mama kesakitan.
Kamu baru mau muncul ketika Papa datang.
Dasar kamu anak papa.
Dan memang kamu blueprint papa. Seratus persen.

Ingatkah kamu, waktu kecil nenek sering berkata bahwa manusia tidak ada yang bisa menghitung bintang di langit.
Lalu kamu akan menjawab,
"Enggak,orang lain nggak bisa, tapi aku bisa kok."
Lalu mulai menghitung bintang setiap malam saat kamu punya kesempatan.
Dan tiap malam juga kamu lost count. Lalu besoknya mencoba lagi.

Aku ingat usia enam tahun kamu membaca puisi 
tentang cita-citamu di acara pensi sekolah kita.
Berapa yang datang, Stephanie?
Aku tak mengira kamu yang  pemalu itu mau maju 
di depan audiens sebanyak itu tanpa disuruh.
Mungkin itu bukti kalau kamu memang serius karena toh dua belas tahun kemudian
kamu lulus masuk fakultas jurusan yang kamu sebut dalam puisi itu. 

Stephanie, arti namamu adalah 'mahkota dan karangan bunga'.
Dan memang kamu si bungsu yang manja senang diperlakukan seperti putri,
dan pipimu selalu merah tiap ada yang memberikan bunga.

Stephanie, aku ingat kamu bertanya kehadiranku hingga bertahun-tahun 
sampai kamu mengerti betul aku pergi kemana. 
Mengapa aku tiba-tiba menghilang.
Mungkin kita bisa bertahan karena berdua.
Mungkin juga kamu jadi nggak bisa sendiri karena aku selalu ada.
Bahkan setelah kamu dewasa kamu masih berharap aku ada, supaya nggak ada yang bisa menyakiti kamu seperti sekarang.

Stephanie, aku tahu.
Tahu kalau kamu sering meringkuk di kamar sendirian sambil mengunci pintu,
mendengar papa-mama kita berargumen, suara-suara dan piring pecah, lalu bertanya aku dimana. 
Mengapa aku nggak ada disana disaat kamu menangis sendirian.
Kamu ingat Brownie anjing kita? Tiap Mama marah lalu hendak memukulmu,
Brownie akan menggonggong lalu menyembunyikan kamu dalam bulunya
Aku titip hatimu sama Brownie untuk dijaga.
Karena selain kamu, aku nggak percaya orang lain.

Setelah dewasa kamu takut dibentak-bentak.
Takut petir dan suara-suara keras lainnya.
Lalu punya ikatan emosi lebih dengan binatang.
Kamu lebih senang menhabiskan waktu dengan buku daripada dengan manusia.
Dan kamu nggak pernah berani membuka hati.
Setengahnya mungkin memang sudah hancur nggak bersisa, Stephanie.
Lalu kamu khawatir nggak ada yang mau menerima sisa yang hanya setengah itu.
Kamu sadar nggak? Setengah hati milikku yang sisa, aku berikan padamu. 

Nggak perlu khawatir, Stephanie

See,I'm Right below you..

Stephanie adikku, jangan menangis lagi.
Orang lain mungkin nggak bisa sendirian, tapi kamu bisa.
Di saat hatimu sakit, ingat kalau setengahnya milikku juga,
dimanapun aku sekarang, I felt it too.

Salam sayang,
(Kalau saja reinkarnasi itu ada, kita pasti jadi kakak-adik lagi).

Monday, January 16, 2012


I worked (average) ten hours per day. 
Not to mention piano school, task, studies, and practice.
Then cleaning my room and lots of other stuff. 

My average sleeping hours is less than six hours per day, and I thought
"This is so tiring."

And like what happens to people with less sleeping hours:

1. Mata bengkak, sembab, lingkaran hitam di bawahnya
2. Mudah terpancing emosi
3. Mudah lupa
4. Susah konek
5. Tired all the time
6. Losing weight

well, I have all 6 and I need...a hug.
Then fall asleep.

But if it's for good, then fight for it.. ;)

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Welcome 2012! Yay!

So people are saying stuff about 2012 resolution. ME TOO! Some of them said 'Nah, I don't need to have one.'

But I said, "If you don't have a target, or unknowingly what your life could have in the future, then we're like strangers, chasing pavement when we can go by bike.'
(excuse the expression)

So here's mine, hopefully it can be done. If not, well, at least I tried.

1. Finished reading the Bible. This is the most important book I have and haven't been able to finished it for 22 years.
2. Do more and more good things, as a Christian, and as a person. Remember, good seeds made good harvest.
3. Be very good..well not 'very good' I guess, in cooking and baking both Indonesian and western, and must memorized what kind of food Martin likes.
3. Grow my hair..or stay short? I haven't figure this out yet. Maybe it's not the length that matters, but how to take care of it better.
4. Spend more time with my loved ones, not by sms/bbm/chat but face-to-face.
5. Go back to school. Means I have to study hard until I got accepted. And study harder when I got in.
6. Got a new job. My recent one expires on April. Got a freelance job, too. My Mom is going to scream, 'How many jobs do you need???' haha
7. Have my 2nd and 3rd grade piano examination.
8. Focus on writing more.
9. Spend less, save more. This include money, time, management, having fun, doing work, etc. But exclude SHOES.:)
10. Fix my teeth. I'm ALWAYS super scared of dentist, and now I'm going to have dental surgery.

I wrote 10 already?? Can I write more? Please??

"Just when you thought everything is set and done, comes another task. Life's a wheel. You can put it down, but it's designed to roll."


Farewell To You :)

Hi everyone! How's your 2012 so far? Before we get cozy I wanna share a bit of my 2011. ;) Hope this can help you reminiscing yours, too.

What I did/got in 2011 (the good things first):
1. Got a GREAT new year's eve with girlfriends. Watched fireworks, and ended up waiting two hours for a cab to get home. :p
2. Managed to stay out of the hospital. Yay! Since 2010 I failed. :p Even though I got thypoid on June and have to stay in bed for a week straight.
3. Met my Mom, after the years she spend in Wonogiri.
4. Got a scholarship from DIKTI. Thanks to Prita Laura and Marthin Saba for helping me out.
5. Got a job, a REAL first job. Yayness!! :D :D got a first REAL paycheck. ahaha LOL
6. Got a new perspective on things, people, moreover God.
7. Had a very special 22nd birthday because I spend it with mom and M.
8. Had a perfect new year's eve. Spent the 30th with mom and M, then spend the 31st with M and family. PERFECT. I couldn't be happier, really. You made me really happy,M. :)
*Oh, and I got my first-ever new year's kiss! :))
9. Bought many SHOES. :D I'm a shoe-addict,I think. And the most important thing, every cent of it is my own money.
10. Had a very much fun with Glorify The Lord Ensemble this year, especially December. I remember wearing pink legging, stripes shirt. and white sneakers for Glorify's 18 birthday back to 80's  :)
11. Saw my blog is read *three-digits-times* I thought no one has ever read it. LOL. and the most viewed (137 times) is titled "Balon Warna-Warni" please find it if you're curious. :)
12. I CUT MY HAIR SHORT after a long time. People said I looked cute :D
13. Going through really rough time managing Mom and her therapy, and felt really left behind by my family and M.
14. Lost: the scholarship because the university cancelled it. *sigh*
      My flashdisk. It really contains real-important files
      Lost some great people. And some people that my beloved ones care for. May they rest in   God.
      Lost 5 kilograms, not on purpose. Got so tired and stressed out, I think.

15. For the first half year, gone through a rough relationship. I'm glad we can manage it fine at the end, though.
16. Got my heart broken. Really deep. I don't think it's gonna recover anytime soon. Because I'm starting to build walls again.
17. Though there's good and bad, happy and hurt, I'm really thankful that I can manged things just fine and be right here where I am now. Thank you, Jesus Christ. I won't be here without YOU, and I love YOU so MUCHO. :D


I planned soooo many things on 2012, post it in just a bit ;)

Thursday, January 05, 2012

Under Construction ;p

It's 2012 and my blog is under construction. Just wait and see, peeps! 

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